The Uh Oh Spot - what is this??

for some reason, i always come back to this place when there is..something..wrong.
for a lack of a better way to put it.

i dont know, i guess is the comfort of venting out, to nobody.
while its everybody in the same sense.

(im tired, you'll have to excuse me)

almost exactly 2 months ago my life was PERFECT.
literally,
i had zero complaints.

almost exactly 2 months ago, to the day, i got married.
i got married to the most beautiful, wonderful woman in the world,
hands down.
things were great.

she took me to her home, in Uruguay, where she grew up,
she showed me the most amazing church ive ever had the pleasure of seeing.
she told me numerous times before, that she always dreamed of getting married in that church.
while i could not give that to her, at at least gave her the surprise of her life when i asked her to marry me inside that very place.

things couldnt of been better.

after trying to plan a wedding, we decided to just go through with it.
we both couldnt wait to to call ourselves a married couple.
we had a very small court house ceremony, but that was ok with us,
we were so in love it was probably disgusting.

isnt it just crazy how drastic things can change in such a short amount of time?

sure, we had our fights. but who doesnt?
i wouldnt trade a minute of my time with her for anything.

i cant help but to not be mad at her.
after all, she is perfect.
and she did do how i always asked..
we always said to each other that the moment we feel different about each other,
to speak up.
because, it wouldnt be fair to not.

i get home from work thursday, and she tells me we need to talk.
and, in her sweet little voice that i adore so much
came the words that i always, in the back of my mind, dreaded.

"I'm not in love with you anymore."

im not going to bore you (if i havent already) with everything that has happened with her and i in the past few weeks. and, really..it doesnt matter.
but, needless to say - i saw it coming, although im hurt deeply, my heart is at rest.
i no longer make her happy, i cant wait for the day she becomes happy again.
even though it wont be with me.

she has such a beautiful smile, it would be a waste for the world to not see.

signing off now,
<3